The missing peace

From the time I was a child I have been searching for something.  Something to complete me.

Sometimes it was like the famous line in the movie…”You complete me.”  Speaking of romantic love.

But mostly it was and still is an earnest cry for something more.  Something to fill the empty places in my soul.

When you look at my life and perhaps your life you think, “That’s easy!  The answer is Jesus.”

However, when I am looking at my own life it’s not always that simple.

Ok so then what?  What do I fill my life with?

Busyness.

Shopping…(the search for the next perfect bag, jewelry or shoes. )

Online time wasters.

Worrying.

“Fixing” (mostly my children)

The results?….

Weariness.

Debt.

Comparison and depression.

Anxiety.

Frustrated children and a mothers sometimes frantic fear.

Years and years of searching has left me empty. Still not complete.  Oh, I have my moments where I know the answer is Jesus. But, moments that are fleeting, like the last night at church camp.

Well then, how do I have a deep peace?  A peace that speaks to my soul.  Good question!  Even though I struggle remembering that Jesus fills my soul like nothing else can I do know one thing.  One thing that doesn’t leave my mind or my heart.  God is full of grace.  Grace that says Kate, you’re ok.  I love you and I will never give up on you. Kate, child… I’ll wait as long as you need to realize I am the answer. ALWAYS.

“and you are complete in Him, who is the head of all principality and power.”    (Colossians 2:10 NKJV)

 

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